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the warrior who hides behind a blade to face their problems is a coward, as the one who faces any blade head on is the essence of honorable.
  • Mood: Insecure
  • Listening to: Holding out for a hero, hetalia's canada tribute
  • Reading: the book of avenity
  • Watching: the clock tick by
  • Playing: programming software
  • Eating: my words
  • Drinking: a little bit of my blood
i feel as if the only one who is able to tread alongside me throughout my adventures in life is fear. the one in which i chase for the rights to accompany has rejected my pleas for communication as their interest has been driven towards other desires hence i have already been obtained. i feel like the jar of pickles siting on the shelf sometimes that has not felt the pleasure of being touched or opened in such a number of months that it has gathered and collected particles of dust as it sits in compilation of its own taste and actions wondering what else it couldve done to deserve to have such a seeming disliking. it knows that one had an interest at one point being as the poor jar had been picked up and was taken to ones home where it will reside for years to come. sometimes that person who made me feel so special would look back to me and make me relish a little but then would turn aside, leaving me to wonder if she dislikes my taste, presence or has just forgotten me. she wont even take one bite anymore...
    I hear all of the love songs streaming across the globe and wonder if the one in which i love will ever make me feel that way as she once did long ago. I have offered all of my life, love, and every waking moment of my time to her, or working in order to attain a better future for her pleasure and desires. Never again shall i wake in the midst of insanity wondering what was wrong with pleas for an end. though i have shifted my lifes entirety for your very entertainment, the only reason i will be paid any attention will be when i drop from the shelf threatening to shatter from my temptations and wet the floor like a very very bad dog. never the less i will remain upright teetering from the wind holding myself upright with the memories ive had of her happiness which will remain sometime in the distant past, wishing nothing but for her to reach in and take one more ounce of my love to try tasting so that i can see her smile once more just as she did before...
    I have the abiliity to accept this as the remainder of my fate, and yet question whether i will be able to remain under that circumstance with no feelings of animosity for another potential buyer, or the ability to reconstruct the death of those i have witnessed before my eyes in the past. my only desire in this world is to serve the needs and desires of others, and many see this as a rarity and ask of me to come to stay at their side to serve their needs, yet i remain only as a token of accomplishment for the one i desire to serve the most in the remainder of my life, contemplating the weight of possible regret for my decision just as the first day i ran back into her arms when i remembered her desire to wrap her arms around me, locking our embrace into one entity and lock her lips to mine with the same level of desire that i show her every single day.
    I feel more so alone than i did before i returned to this state and continue telling myself that my only regret in life is leaving her once before in fear of being remembered long enough to fear being forgotten, could i be wrong about my desires and intentions in my lifes purpose? i searched forso long and assured myself that this was it...


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i ish a strange one that doesnt tell much about themselves to those i dunno but chur always welcome to talk to meh and comment at will =D i love company and i jus wanna hav fun and listen to muh techyno \o/ trouth be told im a DJ in reality and just a kewl person on here... i only draw on teh side or write fur fun but its all just fur boredom cures so hit me up or that blunt whichever ya wants >.> but im kooler cuza i dont burn up and go away =D

Current Residence: its dark but i has cheese =D
deviantWEAR sizing preference: ...
Print preference: ...
Favourite genre of music: Techno \o/
Favourite photographer: Mike Wiley
Favourite style of art: anime / Neko / Furry
Operating System: windows 7 \o/
MP3 player of choice: ehh? o.o i has a choice?
Shell of choice: whut teh eff?
Wallpaper of choice: you dun wanna kno xD
Skin of choice: a persons? o.o WHITE
Favourite cartoon character: cant... pic.. 1...
Personal Quote: dont touch what cha wont eat
  • Mood: Overwhelmed
  • Listening to: stenna-skyline(origional mix)
  • Reading: the book of avenity
  • Watching: my cat
  • Playing: spybot
  • Eating: my arm
  • Drinking: mountain durr
reconciling your losses with what your left with after your repeatedly mistreated, used, and stolen from seems to be the healthiest way of coping with your losses rather than out bursting into a frantic rage in order to regain your repossessed materialistic items.. i was asked the question of what you have when you are left with nothing. i know from experience if you have nothing left, you have your inner mind which possesses vast amounts of knowledge if you allow it to, as well as yourself and surrounding past and experiences. if you believe you are left with nothing, you are left with only the delusion that you are nothing. you are only what your daily actions are added together, therefore your only left with what you make of yourself as a person. if that is nothing, then you truly need help...

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jmsozzy Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2012
Hay i have not seen you for a wile now i miss you. T_T hope you are all right. ^^
Nekolish Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2014
im here...
Nekolish Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2013
im not often enough on because of all my prior obligations leaving no time for pleasentries :( you can reach me on skype alot more easily now though ^~^
Nekolish Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2013
forgot i kno u on here tbh...
Tommyrazor Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2012  Student Artist
once you read this letter, you must send it to 15 people, including the person that sent it to you . If you receive at least 3 back, you are loved. Nobody knows how important something is until...................they lose it. Tonight, right at 12:00a.m., the person you like is going to realize that they love you! Then, something is going to happen to you between 1:00 & 2:00a.m. Be ready for the greatest shock of your life. If you break this chain, you, you are going to have bad luck with love for a whole year. Send this to 15 people and see what happens
(still think this is bull shit)
Nekolish Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2012
you think id do no less? :3
MethostheAnubis Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
thanks for the watch!
Nekolish Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2012
anything to serve, mi~lord
Aseethe Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2011  Professional Digital Artist
Thank youuu for the watch ^_^
Nekolish Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2011
np hun lol i love the pic! puppy!!!! ^_^
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